January 12

Evolution of one’s Beliefs 

 

Prompt: what is your opinion of the idea that our beliefs are influenced by the actions of others?

 

One’s own beliefs are never set, evolving throughout time and experiences. Individuals begin to change there own set of values and beliefs as they see the effects of others actions, thus creating a mindset that is never set. This is visible in almost every individual as no one human has kept the same ideologies and values through their whole life, if one keeps the same views they are considered single minded and ignorant. In the excerpt from The Last Lecture written by Randy Pausch, Pausch talks about the motivation he had gained from the first Apollo mission, Pausch also talked about the importance of having inspiration to motivate everyone. Showing how the action taken by those men who first stepped onto the moon changed his own views. This can also be displayed in the novel Night written by Elie Wiesel, Wiesel illustrated how the Holocaust and the horrfic actions of the Nazis changed his own beliefs, from beliving in god and awlays praying to forgetting him and losing his faith. I personally relate to this as I myself have my beliefs influenced by the people around me, especially my father who I looked towards for guidance and aid. The actions one sees may lead them to change and evolve their own beliefs. 

 

The key events in one’s life are what create their own values. In the excerpt from The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch, Pausch describes his experience of watching the first Apollo mission. He clearly remembers this memory because of how significant it was to him, Pausch believed the vast amount of money that had been spent was worth it. As this would motivate others, this source of motivation and inspiration is greater in value than the money spent. Pausch also describes how the Apollo mission had inspired him as a scientist. This example of a memory in Randy Pausch life exemplifies how an event in one’s life can alter their beliefs, creating new things one may value or signified. The smallest of experiences that one keeps close to them can hold and lasting influence on them.

 

One’s own faith and beliefs can be changed by key events that have taken place in their lives, these events are always kept in mind even when doing the littlest of action. The actions one may take can also affect an individual creating a lasting impact that can never be lost. In the Novel Night by Elie Wisel, Elie writes about the Holocaust and how it changed him. From being a young boy who always prayed and Studied the Kabbalah, to losing his faith and becoming nothing but an empty soul. Elie lost his faith and changed his beliefs as he faced the horrific events of the Holocaust and saw the actions a man could take against another man, Elie belived if God had been real this would have never taken place as God wouldnt allow such horrific events to take place. This is displayed when Elie is in the work camp and ask “where is god where is he”, showing how Elie had begun to lose his faith asking for God. By the end Elie gave up his faith and saw himself in the mirror as nothing but a corpse. The actions Elie had seen take place evolved him leaving an impact on him forever. The evolution of one’s beliefs is visible through the actions they have seen causing them to change and either embrace their past beliefs more or forget them all together. 

 

The beliefs one creates are based on the things they have seen, the future actions they’ll take will be based on their past. My personal experience with this is how I look to my father as a guider, watching all the actions he takes in his life and following him. I watch my father knowing he has been through more than me and knows best. His actions are closely tied to my beliefs as I look up to him and wish to excel as much as he did. By mimicking my father I create certain values similar to his such as having religion a key point in life. By having the influence of one the beliefs or values created will shift to be identical and based on the events that have taken place. No matter the type of individual everyone bases their beliefs over the past experiences that they have seen, this could be my father showing me how to pray and how important it is or me watching him pick the proper meat to purchase and the amount. Thus showing how other actions always have a lasting effect on our choices and beliefs. 

 

The significant actions one sees will never leave them, staying with them as the influence for their own beliefs and actions. One may see these actions as the reasoning for them create new beliefs similar to Randy Pausch in The Last Lecture, where Randy’s beliefs evolved with the first Apollo mission. Randy began following his new passion of science because of the mission. One’s beliefs can also be lost with the significant events they viewed such as Elie in the novel Night and how he lost his faith and beliefs with the horrific events of the Holocaust, causing him to lose his faith in God. No matter the key event one will evolve their own beliefs.       

                                  

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September 27

This I believe: The path created

“We determine our destiny by the actions we take today.” (Catherine Pulsifer)

I believe our future depends on us.

I believe that there’s always a reason something happens.

I believe that every choice made today will change the choices we are given tomorrow.

 Everyone is destined for greatness, but the choices we make affect how we reach them. When choosing today, we should take into account what might happen tomorrow. Destiny is what guides us to success, and without it we begin walking into the unknown every day. What occurs today has a hidden purpose, we should all accept the actions of today and move forward.

  Our destiny is similar to a fork in the road, the direction we pick is the one that leads us to our new destination. Displaying how the choices made today will put forth new opportunities. No matter what direction you pick success becomes imminent as you’re destined for greatness.The fork in the road represents the choices given to us and how we must choose which way we want to go while always keeping in mind the next day. Our destination is what we pursue our whole life chasing what we desire the most in life.

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As summer began, and my first year of FFCA grade nine ended, only one thing was left stressing me after my PAT’s – my report card, which was expected to arrive any day now. I was 100 percent sure my parents were going to be ashamed again after I was suspended the same year. The day finally came when I heard my parents called me as if today was my execution date.   As I began walking into the dining room, ideas ran through my head like NASCAR race “it wasn’t my fault – the teacher was bad”, “I’ll do better next year I promise”, “FFCA just hard – send me to public school”. I sat down across from parents, nothing they had a brown folder in front of them. After being yelled for what felt like hours my mother came and sat beside me and said, “I know your smart you’re just lazy you have to try now this is high school”. I came into grade 10 with a brand new mindset wanting to prove my father wrong, after the first semester I brought my report card home with my head held high. It felt different finally not being scared of my report card walking out the school with a smile on a face. By failing I was led to success. 

 

 

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January 11

Development Of Character Through Adversities

 

 Adversity, a simple yet complex term; is used to describe the struggles and tribulations an individual faces as a mechanism to ultimately develop their self-identity through the process of facing the challenges and hardships that they are accompanied with. The response to how an individual deals with the adversities present, reveals their character and pursuit in life. In the memoir, The Glass Castle, by Jeanette Walls, Jeanette explores the concept of character development and the impact of adversities through the loss of innocence, denial, and ultimately, the acceptance of her true form. As an individual encounter adversities in their life, most, if not often, will reject the tribulations; when they decide to face their problems, the adversities present becomes a development for resilience and self-growth–present in the character of Jeanette Walls.

 

 When an individual is exposed to limited environments and situations, their character is impacted in a way where they will begin to absorb and follow the lifestyle that is present in their surroundings. Established in the beginning of the novel, the scene begins with Jeanette cooking hotdogs by herself in her trailer-van, at the age of three. Accustomed to the lifestyle that her parents have influenced upon her, she deems her actions as normal as she later on curses, and lights objects on fire as well. Having been exposed to little, Jeanette relies on her parents and the environment she is placed in in order to develop her identity. In the beginning, her parents symbolize the sanctity within Jeanette, as they play critical role models in her life–guiding her to what they believe is the normal standard of living. Ironically enough, though her parents will later reveal the beginnings of Jeanette’s adversities through the inclination of poverty, alcoholism, and neglect–Jeanette sees through this, and finds solace with her current way of living.

 

   As an individual develops maturity and exposure to more significant bodies and surroundings of influence, they will be forced to challenge their adversities–ultimately, leading them to critically analyze their identity through methods of denial or struggle, extensively. Jeanette, who has grown to form and integrate into bigger opportunities and settings, begins to develop a deeper sense of denial and struggle, as she is forced to question her true character as a person. Evident in the scene where she hides from her mother, Rose Walls, in the taxi, she observes Rose digging through garbage sites in New York. At this point of her life, Jeanette has matured to reach success as she is surrounded by luxuries present in her life. Ashamed of being identified, Jeanette’s initial response to her adversities is seen as avoidance–later on developing as a sense of guilt; evident when she meets up with her mother at a restaurant, where she confesses her doings the previous night, her mother forces her to re-evaluate her conscience as an individual who has been brought up in a state of poverty. The luxuries and success that surrounds Jeanette  symbolize a place in which she finds solace–an idyllic lifestyle and background for which she wants to be known for. As the story progresses, her adversities subconsciously form into avoidance and denial as she is afraid of people knowing who she really is: a person who is ashamed of being vulnerable and exposed for something she is not– which ultimately leads her to hide her true self, not only to others, but herself, as her lifestyle becomes a sanctuary for her, again, a place of solace. The author establishes the themes of struggle and adversities in that, an individual response as denial to hide from their identity, will lack the motive and courage to find acceptance in themselves, a critical plot that has become Jeanette’s tribulation throughout the novel.

 

 Through reasoning and the right form of impact, an individual’s character can be shifted, which influences them to become a betterment for themselves. Often found when an individual is ready to wholly accept themselves through the means of being exposed to impactful adversities, and individual will ameliorate their life through focussing and prioritizing themselves. Transitioning their focus from the judgements of others. As Jeanette Walls describes her circumstances and the difficulty of accepting who she is–what once was something she found solace in, becomes a burden in many ways. No longer does she find her newly-sewed lifestyle a place of comfort as she is challenged once again to critically question who she really wants to be and the people around her. As she analyzes her situation, she begins to prioritize and accept herself as the person she was, and the person she is now. Symbolizing a significant plot in Jeanette’s adolescence–the Joshua Tree, acts on her initial instinct, as she was motivated was to dig up the sapling and place it somewhere where wind and water could not disturb it’s growth–a meaningful symbol in Jeanette’s adulthood as she is characterized as a person who wants to shield herself from vulnerableness. As a response to Jeanette’s plan for keeping the Joshua tree sapling from being harmed, her mother, Rose, plays a critical role as her response is to reject Jeanette’s plan, quoting, “It’s the Joshua Tree’s struggles that make it unique.” a significant part which later foreshadows Jeanette’s identity as a whole. The Joshua tree not only resembles the significance of growth in Jeanette, but also the fact that the adversities that Jeanette  is faced with, reflects the beauty of it all; to her background in poverty, and her father’s alcoholic habits–she begins to accept and establish her identity through the means of re-establishing her values in life; redesigning herself as a person who is capable to find happiness, through finding herself as a person once more. As an individual becomes aware of their needs, they develop a deeper sense of understanding of themselves–only when they are ready to proceed, will they find genuine happiness in themselves and their decisions.

 

Established within the memoir, The Glass Castle, Jeanette Walls presents and explores the ideas that the adversities and struggles and individual goes through, becomes a motive for an individual’s character shift–a process of revelation as an individual is exposed to the struggles of acceptance and denial. Only when an individual is ready to wholly accept themselves will they find great strength and happiness, through a process of resilience.  

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December 3

My Identity

Identity

         At my age I don’t know what my true identity is and I feel like when your life is all said and done then others truly realize what you meant to the world and what your identity is. As a kid in high school I start to think about what i’m going to do in the future but until it happens I will never be sure about what’s going to happen in my life. I want to be a lawyer but when I get older and gain more wisdom I will realize what I want to become and when I die that will be a part of me. Most of my cousins are becoming lawyers and that’s why I chose to pursue that and sometimes I think to myself that being a lawyer is not truly who I am but there’s money in it. I’ve always loved electronics and because of it I feel my true identity is to become a software engineer. At school we are always told to do what you love and that will make you happy and I somewhat agree with that because if you’re doing something you love and it’s paying you a good amount then I say pursue it but if you’re poor and doing something you love then I feel you will have much more problems in life and it’ll make you depressed. In my case I find interest in being a lawyer and it pays good so it would be a great choice for me but becoming a software engineer is risky because it might not work out so I think that pursuing it would be a waste of time if it doesn’t work out well for me.

“Nobody truly knows or appreciates you until it’s all said and done” ~Anonymous

What this means is that when you’re alive you’re just another human but when you’re dead then everyone realizes how much impact you had on their life and that’s why many people mourn over others death. There’s many examples of this such as rappers because when they are alive people just listen to their music and never look into what they are going through but when they die they post all over social media and start appreciating them. The reason people do this is because everyone is afraid of death and when someone else goes through it they want to show their condolences to their families and show that the person that has passed was important.

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The Psychological Mindset for Success

        What this picture means to me is that you don’t realize your highest point in life until you’re dead and that’s why the man on the top is a shadow. The reason I think this is because your life can change instantly without even see it coming such as winning a lottery or getting framed for a murder. You know it happened but you wouldn’t see it coming. Things like this change what people think of you and eventually changes your identity because the experiences you have in life shape who you are as you grow older.

 

December 3

Importance Of Identity

Identity is the most important factor in ones life. People have ideas of what their identity is, but there are some people who struggle with finding theirs. People will consider it as a goal that they want to achieve as soon as possible but it’s not the most simple thing. Realizing what your identity comes when you are maturing and realizing what life has in store for you.

In my life, some of the parts in my life are my identity for sure but there are some that i really am not sure about. One part of my identity is the fact that i’m muslim and this part of my identity is the most important to me because it has an affect on everything I do like eating, dating, praying fives time a day almost everything i do is affected by that. Me being born in Pakistan and moving here to Canada when i was only 7 months so I’ve lived here my whole life but I’m not 100% Canadian even though i’ve lived here my whole life but i follow the traditions of Pakistan and I’m expected to pass it on to my kids.

Finding your identity is complicated for some individuals it can be early but for some it can take their whole lifetime. For me, Traditions, Family are the two values that make up my identity. These factors will stay with me for the rest of my life but I’m sure as my life progresses I will have factors that will start to affect my sense of identity. It will take time but I need to be patient if I’m not i will make wrong decisions and will delay the process of me finding my sense of identity.

 

December 2

Struggles with Self-identity

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“So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.”

Stephen Chbosky

Who am I?

Who do I want to be?

What represents me as a person?

Questions that each individual will experience at some point of their life.

What makes up me as a character of my own?

Outside of culture, religion, and background: Who am I?

In my personal life, finding my sense of identity is a struggle; finding a part of me that is constantly there, represented in my actions throughout day-to-day life without trying. As if the future upon our shoulders: transitioning from an aloof, innocent children into successful, independent beings, wasn’t heavy enough; the constant struggle and suffocating feeling in finding myself: my sense of identity, and what makes up me as a person. This idea of needing stability charges in full force, expects me to accept the pieces that make up me as an individual when I, myself, do not even know who I am.

When I haven’t come to terms with my sense of identity, how do I represent myself to others?
Is it wrong to compromise my sense of identity, coming up with an idea of how I want to be known without knowing whether or not it’s genuinely what I believe? What is expected of me as I continue to grow and find my way around? The constant pressure brought upon myself because I still haven’t found myself and my goals.

Having friends and family around gives me a sense of reassurance and comfort in thinking ¨It’s okay for now, you’re still young,¨ but at the same time, I can’t escape the constant pressure of feeling like I’m so far behind every one of them because they all have a shining aura of their unique identities while I, on the other hand, am inconsistent in the way I behave and think, left in the shadows by the ones who walk in front of me. Wanting to be like one or the other, friendly and easy to approach, or a part of a group, but often in the end: switching last minute into an embodiment of discomfort, social awkwardness, and isolation.
Stuck in a cage of my doubt, a prison of my own pride; I don’t want to stay feeling so incomplete.

What holds me back from finding my sense of identity… is constant inconsistency.

What holds me back from finding my sense of identity… is fear of not knowing who I will become because of who I’m not today.

But…

At the same time…

What also holds me back from finding my sense of identity… is wondering if having an established sense of identity is more pressuring than having a non-defined identity, needing to act as who I portrayed myself to be, maintaining a consistent image.

All of these mixed ideas and feelings of who I am and who I should be. Is it wrong of me to feel stuck in the land of uncertainty?

In the end, all of this could just be overthinking.

Perhaps one day I’ll find something that will make me feel whole.
An identity that I can call my own.
But until that day,
I’ll keep walking on this current path,
with infinite possibilities,
on the journey of figuring out my sense of identity,
whilst accepting all the flawed and disorienting pieces that create my portrait.

December 2

Who am I?

Finding ones identity is like building a puzzle without seeing the full picture first, when pieces slowly start to come together after trying multiple combinations it is like the beginning of ones identity being shaped. But once more pieces fit into place and it gets easier to understand where the next piece will go. Throughout this whole process the end result is unclear until there are only a few pieces left and it is those few pieces that are finish ones identity.  Self realization is one of life’s greatest challenges and often the most rewarding, knowing who you truly are and what you love will make life that much more enjoyable. For me I am half way through my puzzle, the end result is not yet clear but I have a basic understanding of who I am.

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My whole life I have tried to answer the biggest question about myself and that’s “who am I”, not just as an individual but what is my purpose and why am I who I am. Currently in my life I am failing to find out those questions. The one I’m struggling most with is what is my purpose; and to me it is unclear, like driving on a road covered in fog knowing one wrong move you are in the ditch but focusing and slowing down will eventually get you to the clear area. I have taken many different roads to find out which ones shows me who I am but so far none of them have done that.  The feeling of not knowing who you really are is hard to accept, it leaves a hole in you that is waiting to be filled. Having to constantly struggle to understand my identity and why I am me, is depressing because others claim to know me but how can they know me when I don’t even understand myself. The reason I feel like I’m half done my puzzle is I have found things I have love to do over the years like hockey and gaming but these two things might not go on to my later life so I need to find something that I will be able to do when I am older. So hopefully the struggle will be done soon and I will know my purpose in life.

“Don’t let yourself struggle, become your identity”

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December 2

Sense of Identity

Identity is a major factor in the lives of all individuals and for many individuals it is a challenge for people to truly find their sense of identity. As we grow older there is a lot of change in all ways especially when going form a teenager to a young adult where there is overwhelming responsibilities and change. Growing up all individuals experience finding a true sense of identity as we all grow through changes that contributes to our sense of identity. A sense of identity can be easy and simple for individuals that are placed in situations with minimal change therefore making it less of a challenge for finding their true identity however some individuals go through a rapid change leaving them clueless and struggling to find a sense of identity.

As i grew up i did struggle to find my sense of identity whether it was the friend group i was in or the way my parents viewed me based on my actions. Till this day i am friends with the same people i was friends with back in elementary school but that does not prove the fact that i really found my true friends. Growing older i realized that the people you first start off with are not exactly the ones you are going to end off with because throughout my childhood i started to think that these people are really my friends for life and that these friends i am around are the ride or die type of individuals. I struggled to find my sense of identity with friends based on how all individuals change no matter the history this leads to changing for the better. This is one of the biggest steps i have learned to take that as time goes on everything changes therefore i struggled to find my identity when it came to choosing my friends and adjusting to a new group of friends.

Another struggle with identity was with my parents and how they viewed me based on my actions. Like all kids growing up got in to trouble and conflicts growing up, but for me i was constantly getting in trouble which led them to view me as a troublemaker and not the respectful kid. Even though i got in to trouble often i was still a nice loving kid i was just presumed as a troublemaker to not only my family but also my cousins. Everyone in my family viewed me as a troublemaker when i was really a nice caring person besides the fact i would cause trouble. I really struggled to prove to everyone that i was a good kid that made mistakes after all everyone makes mistakes, i started to change my habits and i changed everything i started to mature to change the way people viewed me and to prove that i am really better than what everyone thought of me as.

 

 

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December 1

Struggles Of Finding Oneself

 

Self-identity, a term used to describe an individual’s potential through the recognition of their qualities as a unique individual—a definition that so many of us seem to struggle with. More often than not, as individuals, we interact with our surroundings. A process that leads us in the path of determining our curiosities, hobbies, and aspirations, if done with the right intentions. For some of us, this process that we consider, ‘finding ourselves’, becomes more confusing than straightforward. Interests, settings, and relationships that we have whth others can play a significant role in what we genuinely want to pursue. 

 

    In my case, I have struggled to come to terms with my personal self-identity. Throughout my childhood, up until now, I have dealt and interacted with numerourous individuals; each having their own set of distinct characteristics. Amongst the people I have encountered, there were a few in my life that tried to mould me into what they considered was ideal in their circumstances. Being a naive individual, I thought that assimilating myself to become the person these people expected would lead me to become more likeable; ultimately driving me to a path of what I thought signified my self-worth. Instead, it had the opposite effect on me. I no longer felt like myself, which spiraled into a path of destruction and loss. 

 

  It wasn’t until I found myself with a group of people that re-established the meaning of identity and self-love: through positive reintegration. With these people, I became a person who sought to find internal peace—ultimately becoming a journey of finding and building myself as a whole once more. A journey which I have found and am still on the outlook for. 

December 4

An Epiphany

  Often times, significant events change our overall ideology and alter the way we perceive certain situations throughout our lives. In other words, when we go through a life changing event, it impacts the way we justify and look at things thereafter. In the film Finding Forrester, Gus Vant Sant conveys this idea by making Jamal Wallace, the protagonist of the film, go through a series of events where he finally makes a transition to become more optimistic. Another point to be noted is that another man that changes his point of view through the course of the film is the famous writer, William Forrester. An isolated man with no hope who goes through significant events that led up to him becoming much more worthy of himself. In my life I have had a life changing event that has made me think in the shoes of a soldier who was a part of the war fighting for his/her country. These unexpected events have led to friendship between the two, who, thereafter, became much more open-minded and individualistic.

    Jamal Wallace, a young teenager with a lot of talent academically and in basketball hides his skills because of the area he lives in. The Bronx, also stereotypically known as a ghetto area for low-income African Americans, is where Jamal practices his writing and basketball skills. Jamal attends school daily, but is afraid to show off his intelligence. He is best described by his teacher when she says, “He doesn’t stick out, nor does he fail; however, he does just enough to get by.” This quote portrays the significance of Jamal just wanting to fit in with his peers; however, one day after retrieving his basketball, he notices that he forgot his backpack at Forrester’s apartment and this incident becomes a very significant event. He meets William Forrester, although he does not know it’s him, he starts becoming very friendly and develops a strong relationship with him. After Jamal’s interactions with Forrester continue on a daily basis, Jamal’s perspective changes and further into the film he feels more confident with Forrester’s word, as he is told to attend the better high school and gain recognition in writing. Throughout the film, Forrester is shown as the fatherly figure that exists in Jamal’s life. This helps Jamal become much more confident within himself and helps him work towards his strengths instead of keeping them behind closed doors.

    Isolated in the four walls of his apartment in the Bronx, famous writer William Forrester has kept his identity hidden for many years. Even though he talks to Jamal daily, he doesn’t plan on sharing it with the outside world. Forrester is very individualistic and adopts a sense of liking to hide himself, the only time he even gets a gust of the air outside is when he cleans the outside of his apartment’s windows. However, when faced with the adversity that Jamal faces of plagiarism and therefore, not being allowed to read out loud his writing piece, Forrester gets out of the house for the first time and acknowledges Jamal for his writing skills by reading a piece that Jamal had written out loud to the audience. After confronting Professor Crawford, Forrester returns to society and develops the perspective of being more open to the public and not hiding himself to people.

  Even though I didn’t know he existed, he soon became a huge part of life. My grandpa, during the month of November, had questioned me if I had known about World War II. Being the ignorant seven year old I was, apathy was my first response to the story he was about to tell. Being a young soul during the war, my grandpa had told me about the adversity he had faced, when he was only eleven years old. His father, my great grandfather, had passed away as a soldier fighting for his country. In a very sympathetic mood, I was surprised. I couldn’t imagine growing up by myself at the age of eleven without my father. My grandpa continued to tell how hard it was being the only man of the family and getting through the day. My perspective that was once ignorant had now become much more supportive and sympathetic for the soldiers during the time of war.

    Not only do unexpected events have some significance in our lives, but they often make us contemplate about our life after and help us change the perspective we once had. That change in a point of view can make a huge difference in our life and help us become a better human-being and recognize what it means to be your true self. In Gus Vant Sant’s Finding Forrester, this idea is demonstrated through the characters of Jamal and Forrester and how significant events have helped them become successful in their abilities. Personally, I have also had a shift of perspective from being careless towards war to becoming much more open and on the soft side of it. Either big or small, the experience and memories we make are the ones that help change us and make us a better human-being tomorrow.