January 18

Lit Expo.

Independence will be a time which is present in every individual’s life. Becoming independent, an individual begins to recognize the ability to become self-sufficient, an idea which was most likely ignored due to an early age. Once a mindset to become independent is established, the individual will realize their true potential, becoming successful in their own ways. In the memoir, The Glass Castle, by Jeanette Walls, the author reveals her own path toward releasing her true potential. From a determined adolescent who sets herself on fire, determined to relieve her hunger to a successful journalist and author, Jeanette demonstrates how an innocent individual will suppress ideas of independence until reaching a mature age and realizing their true potential, ultimately resulting in development toward their own self-sufficiency.

 

Innocent minds will mask any unnecessary ideas of independence due to the false belief of safety established by those they believe their dependent from. In the first chapter of The Glass Castle, Jeanette relives her childhood as she speaks about the time when she caught on fire once making hot dogs at the age of three. Although being only three years old, Jeanette believed that making sure she was fed was her own duty. This clearly demonstrates her parents neglect toward their children as such responsibilities are not intended for the children themselves. Jeanette shows signs of independence at a very early age as making sure her basic needs are reached. Her innocence masks the neglect she faces from her parents, as she feels a sense of safety of ensuring that she is fed. Hotdogs can symbolize safety due to the satisfaction she may feel of just having food present; being able to deal with a hardship she may have faced before which could have been hunger. Jeanette establishes how an individual’s innocence will mask irrelevant ideas by a false sense of safety.

 

A maturing mind is much more capable of understanding hardships and in many cases cause a sense of realizing potential dangers. While growing up, Jeanette starts to look in the trash and even steal food from neighbors in order to keep herself from starving. The Wall’s family began to face financial struggles due to most of the family’s income being spent on selfish reasons by the mother and father. Jeanette’s maturing mind slowly starts to realize the issue and starts to develop ideas for long-term resolvement. At this point, Jeanette starts to show character development as the shift in her character is clearly visible. From an adolescent who

 

hides the signs of neglect to an individual who begins on understanding the problem, Jeanette starts to show signs of independence. Recognition of the issue leads to plans of resolution and being a determined individual, Jeanette begins to think of how she can help her family herself. This eventually leads to Jeanette taking actions to try to control her parents’ financial situation but ultimately realizes that it’s not possible to help due to her parents’ selfish tendencies. Jeanette demonstrates how a maturing individual will start to realize adversities which will ultimately help understand their own potential to become independent.

 

Once an issue is recognized, an individual will begin to establish their independence by acting on their own behalf. Prior to leaving her parents and moving to New York, Jeanette reaches a breaking point where she believes the only way to become successful is by practicing her independence. She plans out everything required to move away from her parents and still be able to survive. After several months, Jeanette is able to act upon the plan and leave. This situation shows Jeanette’s full understanding of her own potential in becoming independent which leads her to act on her own behalf. Jeanette demonstrates how a capable individual will begin to act in order to display their independence.

 

An independent individual recognizes their potential due to a realization of hardships throughout their life from an early age, which was once masked due to their innocence. An innocent child who neglected the thought of needing to become independent, realized a lifelong issue which leads them to act upon the situation which ultimately demonstrated independence that the individual was always capable of. Jeanette demonstrates how her response later in life,  toward her adversities from a young age revealed how she always inherited an independent self-sufficient character. All it takes is a moment of understanding, how much are we hiding from ourself?

December 3

Who am I?

 

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I feel like I have established a solid identity now but it hasn’t always been so. Seeking an identity was a problem for me when I was younger. Growing up, I never felt as if I needed to fit in. I always used to ride my own wave, going along with the flow. I felt amazing.

 

I started to realize a shift in middle school when I started grade five with older cousins in grade eight. I began realizing that everyone was expecting me to act a certain way; knowing I was related to my cousins. It didn’t bother me much at all at first but I slowly started to develop a fear of how people started to perceive me. Teachers, older students and even some of my own friends started to act strangely. It wasn’t till then I fully understood the situation; people were expecting me to be rowdy due to the reputation my cousins had.

I saw myself slowly change my habits and work ethics. I succumbed to societal expectations and became a new person. I began to drop certain aspects that made me unique, like my desire to learn new things or the passion I have toward my education. I began to slack around during many of my classes. I saw myself become someone I didn’t like.

I finally chose to change my habits and become myself once again in grade ten. I surprised many people as some had not seen this side of me before. I changed from a kid who would take nothing less than an “A” to a person who would laugh and get fifty percent in class. I avoided putting work into anything. I started to create this bad image which I was unable to change from all due to becoming vulnerable to people’s opinion of me. I didn’t understand the importance of being unique and being yourself. Your life isn’t based on what others think of you, it’s all about what you think about yourself.

It was a hard process to change myself back into my old habits, but I now see myself returning to my old self. I’ve noticed that I have started to redevelop old passions like astronomy.

My journey to establish my identity was not easy. Seeing myself become a pompous individual was the hardest thing I have experienced; not being able to do anything about it at first made it twice as bad. I learned that when a vulnerable individual is faced with societal expectations, they tend to succumb to the pressures imposed onto them, altering their beliefs and values.

 

 

 

 

November 3

First Fig

My candle burns at both ends;
It will not last the night;
But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends—
It gives a lovely light!

Edna St. Vincent Millay1892 – 1950

Burning the candle at both ends. Seems to be foolish to many, but raises the ears of thrill seekers. One may argue that burning both ends is not practical, others would support the fact that the light which radiates, assists a countless crowd. Burning both ends means to live. It means to not let society’s opinions restrict you from feeling satisfied. Not letting anyone’s opinion affect your own train of thought. No one is guaranteed to live the coming day so acting upon your own wishes should be every individual’s only concern.

I am the type of individual who craves to light the other end of the candle. Living every day as it is my last, aspiring to learn as much I am capable of, enjoying a daily dose of adrenaline. By lighting that other end of the candle, you double the output of light. You help anyone you interact with, see the path which they never took into account. You spread positivity among others, which slowly spreads, like a domino toppling over causing the next to fall. I was forced to recognize the true importance of life, realizing that we don’t have an infinite time on this planet.

In 2015, I lost my grandfather. This was the first loss of someone close to me that I witnessed in my whole life. It wasn’t all of a sudden – we knew that his cancer was spreading and would eventually get him; although he was diagnosed a year before his passing, it felt like a short few days had passed. I never before realized how quickly time can pass. I remember sitting with my grandfather, while he was showing me his old stuff like his tape recorder and other treasures of his – and he talked to me about his life. He told me about how he was happy that he had done mostly everything he wanted to in his time and how I should never hold back from doing as I please. He reminded me how each and every individual will eventually not be capable to do the things we once promised we would when we get older. This was the spark of the lighter that lit the other side of my candle. I had a moment of realization that at this age I am able to do as I wish with little restrictions. Once I am old, I won’t be able to do half the things on my bucket list and I refuse to live with regret.  I need to live life to the fullest because I eventually won’t wake up the next day. When I remember my grandfather, I always remember these talks that we would have and I feel blessed that I was able to spend years with him. Although we never truly met eye-to-eye in all situations he taught me certain life lessons which now I see in action – and burning my candle at both ends helps me to remember him and embrace the life and opportunities I have now.

Individuals are not always able to see the importance of lighting both ends. They may have not been faced in a situation that causes a point of understanding. Or, it could be that they know too well. Being an individual who is in favor of lighting both ends, I seem to forget that I’m burning quicker than I should be. My parents who are more mature and knowledgeable than I am, know that burning your candle from both ends for too long will leave you with less wax than you expected. That wax is a symbol for life, and your parents are there to make sure you live as long as possible. The limitations we experience, are our parents controlling our flame and the rate of melting our wax to ensure we are able to experience all of life.

As I grow, I am learning how to control my own flame, yet both ends are lit. I can give off a beautiful radiating light and whilst having enough wax to help more than one person.

 

 

 

September 16

This I Believe: Family is Priceless

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This I Believe: Family is Priceless

Family, a group which is related due to certain conditions. Family, those people who scold you when you get in trouble. Family, those people who support you when they see you struggling. Family, those people who are always willing to comfort you when they see you distressed. A family has been by your side, and always will be till your very last day. We are blessed to share our lives with them.

We develop a strong connection with our families due to how close we get with them. Families are operated by caring, respecting, and being loyal toward each other.

When you came out of the womb, you were guaranteed infinite love from your mother and father. Although at times it may seem that no one cares, your mother and father always will. Caring for people within the family is often done without thinking about it. The love and care given toward another family member supports them as they know that someone is always there.

“All blood does is make you related. But loyalty? It’s loyalty that makes you Family.”

― Chris Diaz

One quote that I really love is by Chris Diaz. “All blood does is make you related. But loyalty? It’s loyalty that makes you a family.” The harsh truth of today’s reality is that sometimes blood relatives don’t want to see you succeed. People are very easy to get jealous and wish cruel things upon their own blood. Loyalty plays a huge role in being a family. Loyalty shows dedication toward others. Loyalty portrays how you would risk anything for the ones you care of no matter the circumstance. This is where the phrase, “ride or die”, rooted from. The phrase itself is very straightforward. Ride or die. It’s between two parties, validating that the one speaking will stick to the other person’s side no matter the conditions, even if that means death. I believe true family will be by your side ready to fight the same battles you are. People who offer to help, once they see you struggle. People that break bread with you, to see you prosper.